Jealousy

I think I may be developing a bit of a jealous streak. Make no mistake, I am sincerely happy for those of you in the blog world and my friends and acquaintances who are TTC #2 or #3. Yet every time I see a baby bump or hear a newborn cry, I yearn for it to be mine.

Financially, I just don't think we can make it work. I have crunched the numbers. The increase in health insurance and daycare alone would exceed the excess cash flow we currently have. We can make some changes. V has asked for a raise. We might make this work. But I am just not certain. I will be spending the next few months trying to figure it out, and at the same time I am going to start tracking ovulation. I hope it's not all for lost cause.

In the meantime I hope I can control the green eyed monster who keeps getting a hold of me.

18 Months Picture Post

Yikes! So many changes since our last post. Dara turned 1 last Saturday. I miss my newborn so much but I enjoy the personality of my toddler. She amazes me. Hope to post pics soon.

More pictures

Wow. Our last post was at four months and a picture post at that. Our baby girl is now 6 1/2 months old and developing quite the personality. I love her more everyday. We have lots of excitement in our lives. Our best friends will be having their baby girl any day now. And the girls we met on vacation, A Story of Two Moms, are having their babies today. I would post a link to their blog but I don't know how. Anyhoo, when time allows I will post some pics and update our girls progress.

4 months

We have a big girl! She is in the 97%+ for length and 90-97% for head circumference and weight.

Our blue eyed girl.

Poor girl.

It must be nice to be able to fall asleep during a run.

The day at the zoo

This was a great day for us in the morning we went to our first hearing for the second parent adoption and to terminate the right of our donor. Everything went great. I now have temporary custody for six months then they finalize it after the six months is up. We went to the zoo after to see the lions and tigers and bears oh my. Wait there are no bears . The polar bear exhibit is not done yet. Maybe next time.

1st minor league baseball game

C's work got a suite and Sizzle the mascot came by for a visit. Family photo time!

1st swim

She likes the water but I think it was still a little to cold for her. Her lip started quivering so it was out of the pool for mama in about five minutes if that.

Chapter Two

We have been letting her sleep in her own room for the last two days and so far so good. We are getting a little more sleep. Now if we could just not check in on her that would be great. Its so hard not being able to just look over from our bed and check on her. She is getting up once in the night and then again around 5 or 6 so I think we are very lucky. We are taking turns threw the night watching her so that way if she is up a lot one night at least the next night we can catch up on some sleep. She is not very hard to take care of though so I think this is more for peace of mind for C and I.

Short Stories

Chapter one

Spitting-up I think they should call it throwing-up because that is what it is. Our sweet little girl can make quite a mess. I see why they put all of those bibs with the outfits now. We even layer with a burp cloth so that way her bib doesn't need to be changes every hour. I would also like someone to make a bib for moms so they don't have to change there clothes every time they hold their baby. I am getting used to walking around with throw-up all over me now. The grossest thing about the vomiting is when it gets under one of those cute little rolls on her neck and you go to kiss her and this smell of sour milk wisps by you nose. You've got to love it.

10 week photos

I love being a mama!

First pair of jeans! What a big girl!

Someone is very jealous. She is not getting the attention she is used to. We try hard to give her her time.

I love those cheeks!

HI HO, HI HO

I am back to work. I hate leaving my baby with the sitter. The sitter is wonderful, but she isn't me, she isn't V. For right now V's mom is picking Dara up as soon as she gets off work, around 1. This has made the transition much easier on us. So we are getting back into the swing of things. Next on my agenda is starting a diet. The funny thing is, I gained 20 pounds during pregnancy. I lost that two weeks after Dara was born and now I am gaining it back. I was miserable during pregnancy with heartburn and indigestion and never had cravings so keeping weight off was somewhat easy. Now I can't turn off my appetite. Let's hope that the extra calories burnt with BF and some exercise can even out my food intake.
Today I work a half day so I am off in just a couple of hours to enjoy a beautiful afternoon with my beautiful girl.

C

Our sweet little girl even when she is crying she is too cute!

A Poem

V's boss enjoys writing poetry. She asked him to write one for Dara and I've decided to post and share. I have been trying to upload a pic to go with and encountering some problems. I will try to add later.

Dara
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You know it is coming.
The spark
struck as the sun scrapes the horizon.
"Shooting stars"
as we spin thru comet tails.
Quivering things
ready to burst forth
in the days before Spring.
The wonder in your mind
that this world would never be the same
as you held your baby.
And your sparkling eyes
reflecting the gentle carress
of red untamed wisps of hair.

T.M.

Time is Ticking...

Just 2 short weeks before I return to work. I love my job. But I really don't look forward to sending my child to a stranger. I don't want to be a stay at home mom. I like to interact and build relationships with my patients and coworkers. What would be ideal is if I could strap my girl on my back and take her to work with me. Wonder what the bosses would think about that?

Birth Story (Finally)

With my princess sleeping by my side rather than in my arms I finaly have a moment to type the birth story. I have always been a person of few words and this will be no different. I am not leaving anything out. It was just a relatively easy delivery.

On Thursday, March 11th I was shopping for work. As I was cruising the aisles of a local (plant) nursery I felt a trickle of fluid and knew for sure I had not peed my pants. Well, I was 95% sure. I made my purchases and headed out to my car. Once I sat I felt a small gush and was then 100% sure I had not peed my pants. I called V, told her she might want to wrap things up at work for the day as we would be heading to the hospital that afternoon. Then I made my way back to work, dropped off my purchases and announced that my water had broke. Once I made my rounds around the building, said my goodbyes and received well wishes from my coworkers I was off. I called the labor and delivery unit at our hospital. The nurse told me to walk around for awhile to see what happened. V and I had lunch, walked, and made arrangements for our 4 legged babies to be cared for. I spoke with my OB's nurse who instructed us to head to the hospital.

Once at the hospital they determined that yes, indeed my water had broken and induced labor. I had said all along that I wanted to try out the contractions, maybe go without the epidural. Well, once the contractions started rolling in one after the other I realized I am a girl who needs an epidural. I did try IV meds which were supposed to take the edge off. Ha! So I got the epidural around 8:30pm and promptly fell asleep untill it was time to push a few hours later. After around 10 rounds of pushing (about 45 minutes) our little girl was born 1:06 am on March the 12th. We left Saturday evening, the 2 proudest mommies.

Pictures to come!

Dara Carol is here!

I am going to keep this one short. I am home now only because I have to take care of the animals. She was born on Friday the 12th at 1:06am she is 8lbs 2oz and 21 inches long. Her name is Dara Carol and it's feels so amazing to be a mommy. I will post the story and pictures as soon as I can. Thank you C for making me a mommy you did an awesome job and I love soo much!